You ever ask yourself “What is G-d Thinking?!”
Sure you have! We all ask ourselves from time to time… “What are YOU Thinking????” – You – man upstairs! It really needs no explanation. We all have those times in life when we wanted something to go a certain way, and BAM – it doesn’t…. or when something insanely tragic happens and we’re left standing there with our mouths gaping not knowing what to do with ourselves.
Yes, we all have those scenarios – (I’ll give you all a minute to remember some :))
So, we all ask “What IS G-d thinking?!”
Since, I don’t have a direct line – nor an email address, I won’t attempt to answer our big question — but i would like to repeat something my hubby shared with me not too long ago.
Apologies for getting all biblical – but that’s where the story takes place.
In the beginning – in the Torah portion of Bireishis, we read the famous story of Cain and Abel. Cain was the bratty child, and Abel was the goodie two shoes. As the tale goes they each brought an offering to G-d Almighty, but G-d only accepted (or liked) Abel’s offering. We learn that Cain chose a sub-par offering, while Abel chose a pristine offering. And so as we all know, in a jealous rage, Cain kills Abel. (would make a good story for Hollywood no?)
As this might be a good story, or even a good murder mystery novel, there’s a big problem here. Why is this fair?? Abel was the GOOD guy .. and shouldn’t good guys win? You follow the rules, you try your best, you produce your best work, and BAM – you get killed! Where is the justice? (of course, for those Bible buffs, yes the dude gets punished for doing away with his brother, as well as Cain’s future generations – but I’m referring to the justice for Abel.)
Shouldn’t the good guy be the one who gets the wealth, the health, the happiness- aka – the good stuff?
I was chatting with my good friend the other day, and she was asking the very same question. In her words, “I do what’s right, I follow the rules and this is the crap I get to deal with?!” (ok she didn’t use the word crap – I added that in for dramatic effect :)) But the point is clear – the sentence should look like this:
I’m a good person, I do what’s right therefore I deserve and receive goodness in the world.
Sadly that’s not always the case.
Ok, now that we understand the question, let’s look at the answer.
The holy Chofetz Chaim asks this very question and gives a short but quite inspirational and uplifting answer.
G-d is telling us RIGHT in the beginning of creation – before anyone gets any funny or enlightened ideas: “This is MY world. – I am running things MY way. Don’t even BEGIN to try to understand any of it.”
In the beginning, before we get into the nitty gritty of the Jewish people’s history – right away – G-d lets us know, very loud and clearly that HE has the whole world figured out and we mortals will never truly understand it. Does it make sense that the “good die young” or “nice guys finish last?” Hell no – but that’s exactly it – G-d is telling us that we won’t understand it, and we shouldn’t try.
Ok, maybe it shows that G-d has a perverse sense of humor and we are nothing but pawns in his Game of Life — but I’d like to concentrate on the fact that everything is in his hands, and he carefully arranges our lives in a way that only He knows is best. This can give us a sense of faith and hope that there is a reason for all this “stuff.” All the “crap” we can’t understand, or can’t explain or can’t even validate because “how can a G-d exist and let that (insert tragedy) happen?”
With this story, G-d lets us all know from the get go – that things might look tragic, or confusing, or so darn infuriating …. But he also lets us know that its ok, because He has it all figured out. From the big stuff like where we come from, and how our lives turn out, all the way down to the little leaf that blows in the wind to land and give shade to the small insect in the sun.
I’d like to dedicate this post to those people out there who are asking themselves this very question at this very moment in time. 🙂